Songs that help say who I am
Let's begin with my list of songs. Some may be self explanatory.
Just like a pill - Pink
Ironic - Alanis
Confessions -Usher
Still the one - ?
Roughneck - MC Lyte
We belong together - Mariah
My eyes don't cry no more - Stevie Wonder
Stick with you - Pussycat Dolls
You oughta know- Alanis
Let's begin by saying that I can be a very loving person, who loves hard, and unfortunately sometimes too long. I am also the type of person who can be quite bitter, vindictive, and spiteful. I''ve had some good relationships and some crushing relationships, and no matter what the outcome, I try to learn something from each experience. The problem lies with being just as stupid coming out of a relationship as you were going in.
The above songs represents different times in my life that have made a impact on who I am today. For instance, there are a few songs that represent the father of my son , Robert, who was also my first love. Take "Roughneck" by MC Lyte for example, she talks about how this man was straight from the streets with a don't even try it attitude. Which for me was an instant attraction, considering I was the youngest of six children, and five of them being girls. My father kept a very close eye on who we spent our time with, or should I say making sure who we didn't spend our time with. Good girl and bad boy, it was fate. In the words of Mariah, I really thought that "We belonged together".
The songs "You oughta know" by Alanis Morrisette, and "Confessions" by Usher go hand and hand with one event that happen in my life. My son's father cheated on me and just happen to get her pregnant. Needless to say, our relationship had to end. He told me that "he'd love until he died and he is still alive" (Alanis ). It took me quite awhile to heal but in the process it harden me. Which still shines through presently, because although I love my fiance' dearly, I never plan on allowing him to hurt me that deeply.
Which brought the artist, Pink, into my line up of lyrics. "Just like a Pill" is what Robert has the tendency to mean to me. "Instead of making me better, he's making me ill".
Now, my fiance', Jason, represents some of my other song selections. Being an interracial couple meant that we had to prepare for the staring, the snickering and the questioning. Which wasn't so much a problem for me because usually I don't give two shits about what people think of my relationship, but Jason on the other hand was faced with opposition from his parents and wasn't sure on how he should face them with the news our engagement of cohabitation. Which brings me to "Still the One". I may not be sure about who the artist is, but I am sure that some of the lyrics are dead on about some of my feelings.. There is a line that says "I'm so glad we made it, look how far we've come my baby. We kinda took the long way, but I knew we'd get there some day. They said, I bet, they'll never make it, but look at us holding on. Still together, still going strong". This song could be my theme song, and I plan on playing it at our wedding, just for the doubters. Along with "Stick With You" by the Pussycat Dolls. Because although we may argue from time to time, we compliment each other, and that brings out the best in the both of us.
I bet you are wondering where "My Eyes Don't Cry No More" by Stevie Wonder fits into all of this. Well, I'll tell you. Simply, when I go out to the bar and there's dancing or to a wedding, I like to do the hustle.

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